i've noticed this a long time ago, that i've always succummed to measly temptations and come to regret it straight after. It's been bothering me lately, the fact that i'm not doing anythng to curb it. Really, it makes me feel that life drifts pass me quickly and easily. I'm not good at grasping opportune moments.
So, yeah.
an example? okay, i was having a slight throat irritation last night (must have been those yummy durians) and not only did i not stop munching onto small little fried fishes, i also ate wangwang(atypeofyummybiscuit). so now, i'm experiencing my retribution now. I'm sick. and i'm angry at myself.

not only i'm an idiot in thinking about the future, i slack at studies too. i dont understand why. oh yeah, i forget things easily. like,.. helping my mother buy something on my way back from duno-where, not remembering what people said, teachers said. blah.

i think i shud eat some brain supplements.

my brain is telling me to master a musical instrument too, to master the japanese language, to master the art of photography and to be a master at almost everything. so to say, i feel ambitious. but it aint enough to carry me through it. so usually, i end up doing things halfway, or not starting at all. i'm actually proud of myself to be able to throw all these out at a point of time when my head feels groggy.

looking at gackt and realising his determination and ambitions, i feel puny. as if a maggot. he is one strong guy mentally and of cos physically. thank you for being my role model, but its up to me to follow aint it?
i feel, my brain aint mine. Perhaps its all part of being a gemini? or is it that i jus have a weak mind?

and people, this aint a depressed post... It's just an awakening dance.
i still love thee all.